So this candida cleanse is beginning to kick my ass. I thought I was strong enough to not have what some call 'die off' symptoms...but boy am I going through something.
I woke up this morning feeling quite groggy and cranky. I also had watery eyes, runny nose, and...fluid coming out of my ears? Amazing! Apparently thats a sign that your detox is beginning. I had an acupuncture appointment at 10am, so I didn't get to eat much of a breakfast which was an automatic no no.
I got my acupuncture session, which was amazing as usual. I came home, had a snack, grabbed my lunch and headed to work. At work I felt sluggish, groggy, and really just out of it. I couldn't seem to stay focused on anything. I constantly was forgetting what I was doing, and was easily stressed out by any situation. The only difference is that usually if I was stressed about something...I would generally get hyped up about it. This time I was stressed but didn't even have the energy to talk about it. Not sure if thats a good or bad thing?
Anyway, shortly after I got to work I was starving. I ate my lunch that consisted of short grain brown rice, sauteed collard greens, beef, and onions/garlic. It was delicious although my body was intensely craving anything else. I wanted salt, starch, and sugar all mixed together. I swear if I couldn't fight it, I would eat a sweet potato with tortilla chips on top with some salt, and some sugar too. Its amazing the immediate changes my body and mind are making just with this change in my diet for only 4 days.
After I left work I was in a god awful mood. I called Cheese and just let the tears come pouring out. I was swarmed with massive amounts of negative feelings. I was mad because I wasn't feeling any better. I was mad because I was craving certain foods so badly. Most of all, I was mad that I had to even do this cleanse.
To make myself feel better, I ran over to the local Whole Foods Market and purchased a bunch of overpriced products to better my self esteem for the moment.
When I got home I magically got a slight burst of energy and decided to make some dinner. I made a delicious chicken and green bean curry which I will be posting the recipe for shortly. After I ate dinner with Cheese, I felt much better. I got the energy I needed, although in the back of my mind was still wishing I could just throw some potatoes in that curry.
Shortly after dinner I headed to derby practice. I felt awful, just awful. I came in thinking I was going to be fine, since I felt pretty good after dinner. I was wrong! During the first 2 minutes of our first endurance drill, I was exhausted. My legs were burning and weak, I was panting and dizzy. I couldn't keep up with the rest of the fast girls, and that really made me upset. I managed to stick it out through the rest of the drill...barely.
After that drill I pretty much was out of it for the rest of the night. During one drill I actually had to go sit down because I was feeling nauseous and extremely dizzy. The lights had gotten so bright I almost couldn't keep my eyes open and I felt like I was almost floating. Not in one of those 'floating on cloud 9' feelings either. I mean, I felt almost zombie like. All I could do was stare off and not think of really anything at all. It got to me, and quickly. I stuck it out the rest of practice, complaining to myself and a few others about how awful I was feeling. Next time I'm going to just take it a little easier on myself instead of pushing myself to the limit during this fragile process. During any kind of cleanse or diet change, I know exercise is supposed to be very limited at first - but I'm stubborn. It wont happen. So I'm going to continue to stick with it and make my goal of one month on this cleanse. I know its probably going to get even worse than this before it gets any better, but I would rather stick it out and feel better in the long run then have to deal with the day by day troubles that Ive been suffering with for years.
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